Porpoising

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Life is weird.
I'm not sick, but every few days in the last month or so I've felt utterly, utterly incapable of achieving anything. Every task I attempt dead-ends in distraction, confusion or wilful abandonment. It's like there's a fog in my head and even though it's totally self-created and imposed, these days get me down enormously. I walk out of the office at the end of the day in a worried state; worried if anyone noticed, if anyone's dissatisfied with my performance, impatient with my deadlines...not to mention disappointed in myself. Usually these days happen when I'm tired, or a little hungover, but sometimes they rear up (or rather, down) in the middle of a perfectly sensible week and depress and frustrate me.

Today was a first, a day that started out looking like it would be a Brain Fog Special, but I think I broke it. I finished something today that should have been done last Friday but dragged (closure!) and resolved some panic-making problems with my Canstruction entry. And with the removal of those two barriers that were previously huge freaking roadblocks, today has been transformed into a productive, kick-ass day, and that's made me feel good.

I shouldn't allow work to affect me quite so much, but it's difficult to do something earnestly for 40 hours a week and it not affect you.

Anyway, I'll take today as a plus and run for the hills.

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You too? I've had that just recently too. I mean, I've always had kind-of cyclical ups and downs, but the frequency has been insane of late.

I've put it down to the arrival of winter(/autumn) coupled with moving somewhere where I can't speak the language and don't have any easy money-making options.

Still, I often find that there'll be something weighing on my brain more than I thought, and when I finally trudge through the task I'm surprised how much better I feel.

Lets hope your recent achievements were the cause :-)

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